Empty (October Empties)

Hello hello there girls.

I have been wanting to do an empties post for October for quite some time seeing as a lot of products of mine have slowly run out this month, and I thought it would be great if I got to share my reviews with you. Slightly, though, this topic has become more and more relevant.

I am feeling terribly empty because of the whole story with the guy a week ago. I know I said I wouldn't talk about it, but it's hard to ignore the subject (yeah I think I should start calling him the subject, to be honest), when the subject goes to the same school as me, and all sorts of other activities besides school. I really wish he could disappear. Not in a bad way, just in a good way. It really isn't his fault I'm uninteresting to him. Some people we're attracted to, and some we aren't. I guess I'm not his type considering his type is everything that hands it to him easily. Sorry for being sarcastic. He's a sweet guy and doesn't deserve me talking about him like that when no one is to blame here. I am attracted to him, the feeling is not mutual, and that's alright, and yet it manages to piss me off. So I wish for him to get a real good job overseas for some strange reason, and disappear. And all this why? Because I am already transparent to him, and it drives me nuts. It's not that I am invisible. I wouldn't say that. He does talk to me once in a while. In the romantic way, though, hell no.

Then I get filled up with emptiness, because I don't know what to feel for him. I can't feel good things for him, because that would be delusional. I can't feel attracted to him, because that is not going to pay off, unless it's supposed to pay off in hysteria over everything he says, or everything he does, not just to you, but to every girl in his surrounding. I cannot feel hatred for him, because I am just not that person. I think hating people in general is a waste of time and emotions. I can't blame him, because he's just not the one to blame if there's anyone at all. So what I'm left with is emptiness. Every time we talk, every time I see him, every time something of his pops up on Facebook, there's just emptiness, the kind that drives you mad.

And, after all those illusions that crushing on someone gives you, after all of his sweet words and gestures, after getting excited by everything related to him, I feel all the more empty. It filled up a big part of my days, and thoughts, and having that gone, having that gone is quite hard. It's quite emptying.

The truth is, the sad truth is, I haven't really changed. I keep going back to the same kind of guys with the same kind of intentions, and I never learn from my mistakes. I mean the same thing happened with Bob a year and a half ago, when I saw him kissing another girl, at another party, and this just repeats itself. It's quite my fault to be honest. I am so focused on what he looks like on the outside, and I know I am shallow, and I don't think it's a bad thing up until it hurts someone. In this case, I just hurt myself.

So what else have we emptied this month besides ourselves? 

1) Head and Shoulders' Dry Scalp Care With Almond Oil shampoo. Honestly, I loved this shampoo just a little too much. I have quite the dry scalp, unfortunately, and this really helped, for the first 5 months I've used it. Yes, I got a little carried away, and hence my hair got "immune" to it, and my dry scalp appeared again. I will say, though, that I will come back to it after a while of letting my hair rest from it a little, because the smell of it is lovely, and my hair felt great after washing it with it. It is over all a great product, and no, it doesn't make my hair more oily, it is targeted to work on the scalps moisture not oils. 

2) My Labello in pomegranate. Pomegranate is my favorite thing in this world probably, but the taste of this one, unlike the rest of the range, is just a little too soapy to put on the lips. I love the smell and the color, but the taste... Nah. It isn't the greatest thing if you really need to care for your lips, but if it's just the daily use thing, then it's quite alright.

3) My beloved L'Oreal conditioner I talked about only yesterday, and you guys know I'm already with a brand new bottle of it. It's made my hair so soft for the touch, and it smell like honey and beautiful, great, glorious things. 

4) My beloved Midnight Pomegranate body butter by Bath and Body Works. I like it a lot. It makes my skin real smooth, and smell great, because it IS my favorite scent from Bath and Body Works after all. I just put it on my legs before I go to bed and dream the best smelling dreams, and wake up with a smile on my face. I have a back up already, which is good, because it would be a shame not to. 

May our emptiness become happiness. XOXO Roni J.

Those Are A Few Of My Favorite Things

Hello there girls. How are we? Hope that well enough to read a little about my October favorites. Happy elected president to all the Americans in the crowd, by the way. And happy Friday, as well. There's just something about Fridays. The sun shines differently. If you look closely, you can definitely deter the difference between a Friday sunshine and an everyday sunshine. Even through the storming skies. The smell of the air is different. The air itself is lighter, and each house you pass by gives its own cooking scent. Sometimes you smell beef stew, sometimes you smell chicken noodle soup. I love Fridays.

I know that I am late again with this, but we all know it had to come sometime soon. My October favorites are here. This month has been quite constant with a lot of products, but very different to the past months. There are also many random favorites so keep reading :).

Fashion:

1) My ear cuffs. My pack of three ear cuffs. One in gold, one in silver and one in rose gold that I bought together in River Island in the very beginning of October while on the delegation. I have literally been wearing them every single day since. Sine there are three shades it's really just a blast to match one to every outfit, although, I must admit, I have worn the silver one the most. I wanted to get my helix pierced in the past, but I am quite against piercings and tattoos (on myself that is, on other people I even tend to like it), and have heard a thousand horror stories about getting it pierced that I decided I better just go for a fake one. Plus I like that they're wider that the piercing itself better than the width of the average piercing. 

2) Hats. Yes, hats. I love beanies like a mustardy yellow one from Forever 21 I bought approximately 5 years or 4 years ago. I also love bowler and wool hats like one I've seen in Zara, which costs quite a lot for me, because I am not a working person who's still dependent on her parents a little too much to waste money on things like that, but I have one just like it in gray without all the embellishments. They are such a cute wintery addition to any fall winter outfit. I do find that this picture makes it look a little brighter than it is in real life just so you know. 

3) Maxi skirts. Me and my sister (who's finally back, by the way, don't know if I mentioned this at all) have gotten really into them. I have one that's burnt red from Weekdays, one that's olive green from River Island, and a black one from Forever 21. They are seriously the most flattering thing I have worn in my life. 

Beauty: 

1) Star of Bombay nail polish by Orly. Oh, how I love me some dark winter nail polishes. This one is the perfect one for fall, because it looks black unless you're in the light, in which it gets the bluish purplish tinge. I wore it so so much this month, and I am not one to wear one color constantly at all.

2) L'Oreal Elvive Re-Nutrition conditioner. A bit of an odd one, but it is seriously the most softening conditioner I have ever used. With my hair being dyed and all, which I will be removing soon, because I have a pet peeve with split ends. Split ends make me OCD. My hair naturally is really freaking healthy, because I never straighten, curl, or use products on it besides shampoo and conditioner, and I cannot stand its current state. Yet, somehow it remains soft thanks to this savior of a conditioner. I really love it. I've gone through five or six bottles of it already, because it's a constant favorite two years now. 

3) Toni Gard for women eau de perfum. It is a sweet, sophisticated, but not old scent. It's actually my sister's, but I stole it, because that's what little sisters do. I have gotten so many compliments on it when I wore it that I decided "hmm.. Me gusta!".

Random:

1) Corny love songs. I was, unlike me at all, in a loving mood this month, and got butterflies, and was like the average teenage girl this month. For examples: When I Look To The Sky by Train, For You I Will by Teddy Geiger, Begin Again by Taylor Swift, and Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg.

2) Revenge the T.V. show. Me and my sister started making it our little thing to watch the first season together. We started watching it because the lead has actually played in Brothers And Sisters, which is another show we loved. We are on episode 4 or 5 of the first season, and it is twisted, and I love the revealing the past. It is displaying everything that's bad about us humans: greedy, grudge holders that are incapable of forgiving others. I love it. The acting is actually quite good, as well. I actually really like the tattoo she has of forever and always or something like that with the two infinity signs.

3) Looper the movie. I know many people say it's crapy, but I absolutely loved it. Me and my friend went to watch it this month and it was so confusing. It's about time traveling and all crazy things like that. It's abso-freaking-lutely incredible. It's surprising, and crazy, and sad, and wonderful. Loved it so much.

4) Fishbowl Racer!! My favorite iPhone app game of all times. It's the most mind numbing probably, as well. It's one of those games that make you stupid. You need to make the bowl jump, and the fish jump, and it's just freaking awesome. Don't try it if you want to have social life, because this shenanigans is addictive.

5) Red, Taylor Swift's album and particularly the song Last Time, which is a collaboration with Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol, which I love on its own, but it is so charming, and sad, and you can feel raw emotions in it. I just adore it, and have played it over and over so many times.

Hope we have a lovely November. Love you all. XOXO Roni J.