Sunday, November 25, 2012

99 Random Questions Tag

Hello girls. 
So very sorry for my long long absence. So many things have happened this week that I really... I really had to have a little break. For instance, I almost went on a date with a completely new guy that I know from a few years back and is two years older to a movie, when my sister-like friend told me he's a player, and when I said "hey it's been nice to talk to you, but I'm not really interested" his answer proved her right. That is all alright considering I still want Mr. object. I thought that in order to be a bit lighter we'll do a random tag. Wouldn't it be nice? Hope we all had a great Thanksgiving (whoever's American that is) and an even great black Friday.

1) Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I don't have a walk in closet, but I sleep with them closed. If I had a walk in closet I would have loved to have it open, and to see my closet in my dreams.
2) Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
No. I think that's a little rude, but no judgement there.
3) Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
AHHHH of course I sleep with them tucked out. Have I committed some deadly sin that I desetve being punished for by tucking my sheets in before I sleep?
4) Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
I'm this physically weak to a pathetic extant, goody two shoes girl. No I haven't.
5) Do you like to use post-it notes?
If by using them you mean sticking them to random places everywhere all the time, then yes. Very mature. I know.
6) Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
If I cut them I use them. If I don't need them, I don't cut them.

7)Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bee?

Well, I quite enjoy living. I think I chose the obvious NONE.
8) Do you have freckles?
Yup. Just a little on my cheeks, though.

9) Do you always smile for pictures?
Not always, but mostly.

10) What is your biggest pet peeve?

Oh wow. I have so many. I hate clingy people. I hate when people enjoy being pathetic, and making you feel bad about everything you say to them. I hate people picking fights. I hate dramatic people basically haha. 

11) Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
No, I think of other things though. I love thinking when I walk almost as much as I love thinking in the shower.

12) Have you ever peed in the woods?

Yeah sure.

13) What about pooped in the woods?

Feminine much?

14) Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?

I love dancing. I dance when possible.

15) Do you chew your pens and pencils?
Hell no. That's nasty.

16) How many people have you slept with this week?

What are you? None.

17) What size is your bed?

Queen size. Well fitted for a queen much like myself ;)
18) What is your Song of the week?
22 by Taylor Swift :D
19) Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Hell yea. You know a guy has some style when he manages to style pink. 

20) Do you still watch cartoons?
Yup :)

21) Whats your least favorite movie?
Hard to choose. I like most movies. There is one comedy that I tried watching and didn't get through, but I wouldn't know what it was called for the life of me.
22) Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
In a bank account. Duh.
23) What do you drink with dinner?
Tea. Good warm herbal tea that soothes the heck out of me.
24) What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Ketchup I guess. Or sweet chilly sauce.
25) What is your favorite food?
Oh wow. Tough competition between steak and sushi. 

26) What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Max Payne. It reminds me of my first date.

27) Last person you kissed/kissed you?

28) Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
Fo sho! Still am.
29) Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
Probably not considering I want to be a politician, and that would be a BAD BAD idea.
30) When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Two months ago.
31) Can you change the oil on a car?
I don't even drive. Yup, I'm almost 18, and don't drive. As I've said, I just love walking.
32) Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
33) Ever ran out of gas?
My mom has on the way to the mall I'd think. Other than that refer to #32 and #31
34) Favorite kind of sandwich?
When we drove up to Vermont three or four years ago, and had the most amazing Thanksgiving Turkey sandwich. Turkey, cranberry sauce, stuffing, and heaven in a piece of bread.
35) Best thing to eat for breakfast?
I don't really eat breakfast, which is unhealthy, I know, but if I had to I would gladly eat English breakfast. Without the sausage, though, 'cause I hate sausage.

36) What is your usual bedtime?
Well, the usual is 11pm, but if I could go to sleep and wake whenever without worrying about school it would be 3am.
37) Are you lazy?
Depends how driven I am.
38) When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
Mostly fairies. Any freaking kind of fairy I could dress up as.
39) What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Pig. Very funny.
40) How many languages can you speak? 
Two  fluently, I would say, and two more, not so fluently. Would love to know every single language.

41) Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nope. I rather reading a good book over it.
42) Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
43) Are you stubborn?
As stubborn as life has to offer.
44) Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
45) Ever watch soap operas?
Teen dramas are the best!!! All the depth that I have in me.
46) Are you afraid of heights?
47) Do you sing in the car?
I sing everywhere.
48) Do you sing in the shower?
As I've said already.
49) Do you dance in the car?
Possible. Not gonna lie. 

50) Ever used a gun?
Nah honey.

51) Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

Too long ago.

52) Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Yes. But I love them.
53) Is Christmas stressful?
Of course not.
54) Ever eat a pierogi?
Yes. All too lovely.
54) Favorite type of fruit pie?
I don't really like pie. I don't really like desserts in general.
56) Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Model, singer, actress, dancer and superstar. That is until some mean girls messed with my head, and now I have stage fright. I will however be a politician and save the world.
57) Do you believe in ghosts?
 Should I?
58) Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
In the past more than in current days.
59) Take a vitamin daily?
Nah. My diet is very balanced.
60) Wear slippers?
Only the fuzziest of types. Or as missglamorazy would say only the rarest of slippers.
61) Wear a bath robe?
Nah. Not really. Only in fancy hotels.
62) What do you wear to bed?
Depending on the season really.
63) First concert?
Hmmm... Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Avril Lavigne. I had my fair share of stupidity.
64) Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target I think.
65) Nike or Adidas?
Adidas I think.

66) Cheetos Or Fritos?

67) Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Both. Nut mixture!
68) Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
No, but I know what it means!
69) Ever take dance lessons?
Almost every single year of my life. Almost every kind of dance.
70) Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Something that makes them work their asses off. I like hardworking people.
71) Can you curl your tongue?
Yup. I can also touch it to my nose.... Freakk!
72) Ever won a spelling bee?
Never tried, but I am quite good at spelling.
73) Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
I think I have. At some point I must have.
74) Own any record albums?
My father owns some.
75) Own a record player?
No, but hopefully some day I will.
76) Regularly burn incense?
No, but I burn scented candles. Incense make me nauseous to be honest.
77) Ever been in love?
I don't think I'll ever know how to differ regular love from falling IN love.
78) Who would you like to see in concert?
Walk The Moon. They seem like so much fun.
79) What was the last concert you saw?
HMMM... Probably some local band at the fair. I'm really not sure.
80) Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot. Especially round this time of year.
81) Tea or coffee?

82) Sugar or snickerdoodles?

83) Can you swim well?
Yes, I do. And I love it. Such an easy way to calm down.
84) Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
85) Are you patient?

86) DJ or band, at a wedding?
Paolo Nutini. Dream come true.
87) Ever won a contest?
A few stupid ones.
88) Ever have plastic surgery?
No. Don't plan to.
89) Which are better black or green olives?
90) Can you knit or crochet?
I used to, but kinda forgot.
91) Best room for a fireplace?
My room, or somewhere with a little nook that you can read books in.
92) Do you want to get married?
I don't really mind the ceremony itself, but I would love to have a partner to spend the rest of my life with, yes.
93) If married, how long have you been married?
Got time till then, honey.
94) Who was your HS crush?
So many and HS is not even over.
95) Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
Not anymore I don't. I do however cry quite a lot. Especially at the pain of others.
96) Do you have kids?
Thanks to all that's good and pure on this earth not yet.
97) Do you want kids?
I would love to have some of my own and at least one adopted, yes.
98) Whats your favorite color?
Green, blue, and burgundy.
99) Do you miss anyone right now?
Considering I used to live in a different country- hell yea. Many.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Empty (October Empties)

Hello hello there girls.
I have been wanting to do an empties post for October for quite some time seeing as a lot of products of mine have slowly run out this month, and I thought it would be great if I got to share my reviews with you. Slightly, though, this topic has become more and more relevant.
I am feeling terribly empty because of the whole story with the guy a week ago. I know I said I wouldn't talk about it, but it's hard to ignore the subject (yeah I think I should start calling him the subject, to be honest), when the subject goes to the same school as me, and all sorts of other activities besides school. I really wish he could disappear. Not in a bad way, just in a good way. It really isn't his fault I'm uninteresting to him. Some people we're attracted to, and some we aren't. I guess I'm not his type considering his type is everything that hands it to him easily. Sorry for being sarcastic. He's a sweet guy and doesn't deserve me talking about him like that when no one is to blame here. I am attracted to him, the feeling is not mutual, and that's alright, and yet it manages to piss me off. So I wish for him to get a real good job overseas for some strange reason, and disappear. And all this why? Because I am already transparent to him, and it drives me nuts. It's not that I am invisible. I wouldn't say that. He does talk to me once in a while. In the romantic way, though, hell no.

Then I get filled up with emptiness, because I don't know what to feel for him. I can't feel good things for him, because that would be delusional. I can't feel attracted to him, because that is not going to pay off, unless it's supposed to pay off in hysteria over everything he says, or everything he does, not just to you, but to every girl in his surrounding. I cannot feel hatred for him, because I am just not that person. I think hating people in general is a waste of time and emotions. I can't blame him, because he's just not the one to blame if there's anyone at all. So what I'm left with is emptiness. Every time we talk, every time I see him, every time something of his pops up on Facebook, there's just emptiness, the kind that drives you mad.
And, after all those illusions that crushing on someone gives you, after all of his sweet words and gestures, after getting excited by everything related to him, I feel all the more empty. It filled up a big part of my days, and thoughts, and having that gone, having that gone is quite hard. It's quite emptying.

The truth is, the sad truth is, I haven't really changed. I keep going back to the same kind of guys with the same kind of intentions, and I never learn from my mistakes. I mean the same thing happened with Bob a year and a half ago, when I saw him kissing another girl, at another party, and this just repeats itself. It's quite my fault to be honest. I am so focused on what he looks like on the outside, and I know I am shallow, and I don't think it's a bad thing up until it hurts someone. In this case, I just hurt myself.

So what else have we emptied this month besides ourselves? 
1) Head and Shoulders' Dry Scalp Care With Almond Oil shampoo. Honestly, I loved this shampoo just a little too much. I have quite the dry scalp, unfortunately, and this really helped, for the first 5 months I've used it. Yes, I got a little carried away, and hence my hair got "immune" to it, and my dry scalp appeared again. I will say, though, that I will come back to it after a while of letting my hair rest from it a little, because the smell of it is lovely, and my hair felt great after washing it with it. It is over all a great product, and no, it doesn't make my hair more oily, it is targeted to work on the scalps moisture not oils. 

2) My Labello in pomegranate. Pomegranate is my favorite thing in this world probably, but the taste of this one, unlike the rest of the range, is just a little too soapy to put on the lips. I love the smell and the color, but the taste... Nah. It isn't the greatest thing if you really need to care for your lips, but if it's just the daily use thing, then it's quite alright.

3) My beloved L'Oreal conditioner I talked about only yesterday, and you guys know I'm already with a brand new bottle of it. It's made my hair so soft for the touch, and it smell like honey and beautiful, great, glorious things. 

4) My beloved Midnight Pomegranate body butter by Bath and Body Works. I like it a lot. It makes my skin real smooth, and smell great, because it IS my favorite scent from Bath and Body Works after all. I just put it on my legs before I go to bed and dream the best smelling dreams, and wake up with a smile on my face. I have a back up already, which is good, because it would be a shame not to. 

May our emptiness become happiness. XOXO Roni J.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Those Are A Few Of My Favorite Things

Hello there girls. How are we? Hope that well enough to read a little about my October favorites. Happy elected president to all the Americans in the crowd, by the way. And happy Friday, as well. There's just something about Fridays. The sun shines differently. If you look closely, you can definitely deter the difference between a Friday sunshine and an everyday sunshine. Even through the storming skies. The smell of the air is different. The air itself is lighter, and each house you pass by gives its own cooking scent. Sometimes you smell beef stew, sometimes you smell chicken noodle soup. I love Fridays.
I know that I am late again with this, but we all know it had to come sometime soon. My October favorites are here. This month has been quite constant with a lot of products, but very different to the past months. There are also many random favorites so keep reading :).


1) My ear cuffs. My pack of three ear cuffs. One in gold, one in silver and one in rose gold that I bought together in River Island in the very beginning of October while on the delegation. I have literally been wearing them every single day since. Sine there are three shades it's really just a blast to match one to every outfit, although, I must admit, I have worn the silver one the most. I wanted to get my helix pierced in the past, but I am quite against piercings and tattoos (on myself that is, on other people I even tend to like it), and have heard a thousand horror stories about getting it pierced that I decided I better just go for a fake one. Plus I like that they're wider that the piercing itself better than the width of the average piercing. 

2) Hats. Yes, hats. I love beanies like a mustardy yellow one from Forever 21 I bought approximately 5 years or 4 years ago. I also love bowler and wool hats like one I've seen in Zara, which costs quite a lot for me, because I am not a working person who's still dependent on her parents a little too much to waste money on things like that, but I have one just like it in gray without all the embellishments. They are such a cute wintery addition to any fall winter outfit. I do find that this picture makes it look a little brighter than it is in real life just so you know. 
3) Maxi skirts. Me and my sister (who's finally back, by the way, don't know if I mentioned this at all) have gotten really into them. I have one that's burnt red from Weekdays, one that's olive green from River Island, and a black one from Forever 21. They are seriously the most flattering thing I have worn in my life. 

1) Star of Bombay nail polish by Orly. Oh, how I love me some dark winter nail polishes. This one is the perfect one for fall, because it looks black unless you're in the light, in which it gets the bluish purplish tinge. I wore it so so much this month, and I am not one to wear one color constantly at all.

2) L'Oreal Elvive Re-Nutrition conditioner. A bit of an odd one, but it is seriously the most softening conditioner I have ever used. With my hair being dyed and all, which I will be removing soon, because I have a pet peeve with split ends. Split ends make me OCD. My hair naturally is really freaking healthy, because I never straighten, curl, or use products on it besides shampoo and conditioner, and I cannot stand its current state. Yet, somehow it remains soft thanks to this savior of a conditioner. I really love it. I've gone through five or six bottles of it already, because it's a constant favorite two years now. 

3) Toni Gard for women eau de perfum. It is a sweet, sophisticated, but not old scent. It's actually my sister's, but I stole it, because that's what little sisters do. I have gotten so many compliments on it when I wore it that I decided "hmm.. Me gusta!".
1) Corny love songs. I was, unlike me at all, in a loving mood this month, and got butterflies, and was like the average teenage girl this month. For examples: When I Look To The Sky by Train, For You I Will by Teddy Geiger, Begin Again by Taylor Swift, and Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg.

2) Revenge the T.V. show. Me and my sister started making it our little thing to watch the first season together. We started watching it because the lead has actually played in Brothers And Sisters, which is another show we loved. We are on episode 4 or 5 of the first season, and it is twisted, and I love the revealing the past. It is displaying everything that's bad about us humans: greedy, grudge holders that are incapable of forgiving others. I love it. The acting is actually quite good, as well. I actually really like the tattoo she has of forever and always or something like that with the two infinity signs.

3) Looper the movie. I know many people say it's crapy, but I absolutely loved it. Me and my friend went to watch it this month and it was so confusing. It's about time traveling and all crazy things like that. It's abso-freaking-lutely incredible. It's surprising, and crazy, and sad, and wonderful. Loved it so much.

4) Fishbowl Racer!! My favorite iPhone app game of all times. It's the most mind numbing probably, as well. It's one of those games that make you stupid. You need to make the bowl jump, and the fish jump, and it's just freaking awesome. Don't try it if you want to have social life, because this shenanigans is addictive.

5) Red, Taylor Swift's album and particularly the song Last Time, which is a collaboration with Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol, which I love on its own, but it is so charming, and sad, and you can feel raw emotions in it. I just adore it, and have played it over and over so many times.

Hope we have a lovely November. Love you all. XOXO Roni J.

Saturday, November 3, 2012


Hello my dear dear girls.
How have you been? How was Halloween? I thought I would do a post about it, but really I didn't do much in the end to my deep sincere dismay. I did have a good time at a Halloween slumber party with two of my friends eating candy we were otherwise supposed to give little children that never came trick or treating at our door, and watching scary film. I wouldn't call Shutter Island or the Changeling Halloween movies, but they definitely creep the shenanigans out of me.
My Friday was quite horrid. I had to deal with a lot of stupid people and have drama,which I hate. Why did I have to go through all that drama? Part of it is actually because I was trying to avoid some other drama.
Remember the guy friend I talked about here on few occasions, most of them were fights. He was a really good guy friend of mine up until the summer when he started being really dramatic and the two most hated qualities in humans in my opinion, clingy and making you feel bad for what ever you do that they don't like. So I said, dude, I hate that, I am not going to suffer through it. Let me go.
Time passed and he started dating a friend of mine from a different city that I ( big big mistake) had them meet, and he decided it would be cool to start dating her when I was in China and didn't know.... Yea. Drama. So she lives far away and I've only seen her once these past six months, and we really are really close friends. We decided a few weeks ago that she'll come here, and ever since then, ever since then he's been telling me what to do. "I want Friday"-"Yea, no, I have already planned Friday for her"-"Fine then. I get all Saturday with her". "I wanna surprise her so you have to bring her here and here at whatever time". "Are you picking her up from the train station?"-"Yup, why?"-"Then bring her around my house first so I can say 'hi' to her".
Fucck no. So Friday comes around, and we have a big dinner with some other guests planned and this doesn't suit me anyways, and the more time passes the least I wanna have her here, even though I know it's not all her fault. Anyways we're preparing the meal and I get a text from her saying that if it's uncomfortable for me he can pick her up. Obviously I have to help in the kitchen, but on the other hand I know that if he picks her up I won't get to see her. Like ever. So I say fuck it try can just be together the entire time and it doesn't matter that she's going home on Saturday so when she came Friday it was after school and I had little time with her, I don't even get Sunday or Saturday. Coming to town for me? Yea, I don't think so. To put things shortly I barely had any time with her and she also bailed on me last minute when we said we'll go to a party. I got so annoyed and so tired of all of it so I decided to go to the party anyways. I was frustrated and needed to get out.
Obviously if things didn't go up hill until now, why would they start to now? So we head off to the club. I try and forget that I'm pissed at so many things other than just that story. We go in, there are some very good songs we dance have fun blah blah blah, but then they change the DJ and he starts putting some... Weird mixes to some very weird songs, and me and another friend are like alright there are two rooms, in the other they play rock music, which I love, but still think it's a little less clubby, you know. We got to the other room to see what's there, because the other room is getting boring as hell. We hear the music there's not good either, and we're about to head out when BAM! Into my face like a my little pony, so magical, jumps the sight of little mr. Ben (-the guy I wanted) making with another girl. I don't even know why I was so surprised. I knew that's who he is. He is a player, and he enjoys it very much. For what kind of twisted stupid idea did I think I need to be the one that fixes that? He likes it, and, if I like him, although I find it wrong and have been educated against it all my life, what kind of right do I have to even think of taking that away from him? Obviously I shall never become one of those girls who give it all so easily. I'm just not that, surely not for a guy like him that will just move on to the other. I am far too wise to think that giving it to him easily the first time means that he'll love me forever. It's not about playing it hard to get, not at all, but I just know that whatever comes too fast, goes too fast.
And so we walk out. I sit on the couches outside to let out some steam texting friends that didn't come. At first my friend came with me, and then she went inside to dance a little and then came back. I didn't expect her to, but it was nice to have her there. I went through this in my head. I wrote some notes on my iphone saying things like: "Let me go", and "It was worth it to be off cloud nine and back on the ground. I needed to remember that he's not a prince charming". I kinda had to remind myself who I am, and that he really is just like all them guys before that I don't even look at anymore. I got a burst of energy, went back in, thankfully they changed the DJ again, so the songs were better, and I danced my legs off.
"Now here you go again. You say you want your freedom. Well, who am I to keep you down? It's only right that you should play it how you feel it".
After a few good songs we were all really tired and went back outside to sit around a table, and there comes mr. Not So Charming No More, or in short nscnm(?) to sasy "hi" to me for the first time, and acts like quite a big dick (sorry for the language today), says "hi" like a jerk, and sits next to us around the table. By this point I'm a cold heartless bitch, because I don't let myself groan over things like that for too long, and I flash him an honest 'I don't give a crap' smile.
One of his sluts comes and sits in his lap, and he's rejecting her, because that's what he does best, he's playing. I take it all in, I analyze it, I weigh the pros and cons, and I get to the beautiful conclusion that it's time to dance a few last songs and go home happyhearted. I got rid of another weight in my life that I don't need.
"Thunder only happens when it's raining. Players only love you when they're playing".
I am a dreamer, I am, but I am also a realist. I know it's a weird combination, but I know when I must dream, and when I must wake. I loved dreaming that something might ever happen between us the past three months or so, but I also loved just being back on the ground, where I belong at the end of the day. I shall not talk about this much more after this post. I shall not pay him undeserved attention, unless he ever changes. I don't tarry around too much.
Hope you have a lovely week. Hope we all. XOXO a much more realistic Roni J.