I Heart Spring!

Hello pretty girls.
How are we? You know me, always getting better. Thank goodness my friend got her test results a few hours ago, and thank goodness yet again, she doesn't have cancer, and it was just a scare. I cannot express the happiness I have in me for her being well and healthy. It was a weird weight to bare the past month. Ever since she went to the doctor's and he said cancer might be the reason she was getting these stomach ache all the time, I was scared out of my mind, praying for her well being every night, worrying that she is going to get lost in fear, because she has before in her life.
So things are always looking up. I'm not saying you have to believe in God, but it has so far in my life (knock on wood) proved itself to be a good way to deal with things. Not believing in God necessarily, but believing in yourself, believing in the good, believing that things are for the best, and will get better soon. I just had to share the relief. It's the most amazing news I've gotten recently.
Another weird thing happened to me yesterday, while we were practicing for the senior musical. I don't know if I've talked about him, but in the musical I play a part with a guy in my grade that is absolutely dear. I mean I am insanely attracted to him, and I know he's kind of a player (Mr. Guy's best friend... No wonder), but he is insanely sweet, and he just lights up my world... We shall name him.... Big Guy (yup, most of the guys I'm attracted to will be named guy, because that's the way I am. He is really wide and tall, hence the name-Big Guy). Anyways when we were at a party last weekend, after a long break from rehearsals in which we hadn't seen each other. He is also my bio lab partner, so we've had quite a lot of interaction lately. And at the party he came up behind me and held me, I'm guessing that slightly drunk, but he didn't smell like it, and said "I've missed you". Needless to say I melted like a freaking marshmallow in s'mores.
Me being the stress case I am, every time he's supposed to kiss me on the cheek during the musical, I melt like a butter on a freshly toasted bread. I know. A kiss on the cheek, how much of a stinking shy girl can I be. The answer is infinitely shy.
So what happened yesterday in rehearsal, anyways, was me resting a little on the bars that were hanging at the gym. The bars were the kind that are just two bars sticking out of the wall, and you rest your hand on them and lift your legs up and down in order to get you tummy muscles working. So I was just leaning against the wall with my arms on the bars that were lowered, because it's the middle school gym. I was watching from the sidelines, basically, and saw him and thought how funny it could have been if he had cornered me. Guess what happens... He comes up in front of me, and puts his hands on the bars lifting himself up, so literally, he basically cornered me. He lowers himself down to my ear and says "Roni, I think it's time we talked about the tension between us", and I'm like...... WHAT?! WHERE did that come from just now?! Laughing on the inside at how weird it was that I was just thinking about it happening and kind of pushed the thought away like that ain't gonna happen. So I push him away slightly thinking well, hello, Big Guy, aren't you just a smidge too close?
Because that's what a stress case thinks about straight away rather than did he just say he wants you? And I say alright Big Guy (I didn't really say Big Guy, I said his name), let's talk. He said aww you ruined the atmosphere, and we talked for a short while, not about the tension between us, but like two seconds, and then we had to go back and dance the dance number that we are both a part of.
Today comes around and I am still quite shocked about what happened. Like how it happened, and what he said all seems blurry and odd. Oh, but then, yes, then, I get a text message from dear Big Guy, and I'm like... What? Where does he have my number from. Anyways he asked me if I could help him study for a test we have tomorrow, and I mean I don't know if it was just him thinking I'm smart, and that if he wants success he should ask me for help, or if he wanted to use that excuse for talking to me.
Funny thing is..... He asked Mr. Guy for the number. Yup. The one that I have had mixed feelings about for the past something that looks like 8 months maybe, maybe even more. Why? Because they are freaking best friend, and guess what? Mr. Guy gave him my number. And it pisses me off like nothing else. The most sarcastic joke was just pulled on me, and it is really not funny. What? You had to give him my number? Not that I have a problem with Big Guy having my number, not at all, I actually quite like the guy and am extremely attracted to him, but... Ugh, why would I ever think something was going on between us? There was nothing, and I do mean nothing. Nada. Zepooo. And I just got hurt by you not even rejecting me, but just giving away my number to your best friend who wanted my number, God knows what for. I know there was nothing between us, and even when there was the slightest sign that there might be something worth talking about, even then you kept going making out, and other more graphic stuff with other girls, so hell, why would I even think that? Why would I ever get mad at you for giving away my number like there was nothing between us, when there was actually nothing between us? I am the one that's messed up for being mad at him, you see?
Anyways, I'll keep believing and being positive, and I will keep being true to myself, and I know this is probably for the best. I know Mr. Guy is unhealthy, and isn't serious or driven or caring. I also know that Big Guy is a lot of these things. He's not perfect, not at all to say the least, but I can see better things coming our of liking him than came out from being attached to Mr. Guy that doesn't even give a darn yarn about me.
Back to the actual topic, let's talk spring. And let's talk our favorite spring things if we may. Here are the questions, courtesy of Missglamorazzi, Ingrid, on Youtube, that did this tag a week or two ago, and I thought it was cute and fitting. Here are the questions:
1. Favorite spring nail polish:
This spring-summer season color is pistachio, which is really light pastel green, a little different from the mint that we saw last spring in the fact that it is more green than teal. And I love that color. So the nail polish I naturally chose for this category is in the pistachio shade. First Timer by Essie is my choice. It is from the latest collection called the Resort collection, and all of the colors are quite sweet, but this one just... Grabbed me, as I was grabbing it. So, yup this is it.

2. What is Your must-have lip color this spring?
On Hold, my dear beloved lipstick from MAC that I have just talked about for hours in my March Favorites post, Marching On. It's such a pretty pink color that suits my skin perfectly, and I love the fact that It's a cremesheen so it's light. I also don't like going too light or bright on my lips, otherwise it washes me out, which is not a good look on me, so the fact that it's not the lightest shade is a great thing in my opinion.

3. Show us your favorite spring dress!
Alright, alright, just don't yell at me. It's this beautiful blue floral dress from Topshop a few years ago. I love that it sits perfectly on my body, and looks like it came from a 50's housewife. It cinches in at the waist, which gives your body a really sweet feminine look, and the neckline is not deep, so it's feminine, but not cheap.

3. What's your favorite spring flower?
My favorite spring flower is daffodil. It's simple, and beautiful, and smells really fresh and good. I love it. I especially love the white daffodils, and we grow them in the garden every spring. They make me happy.

5. Favorite spring accessory?
My favorite spring accessory is my beautiful wool sun hat. It is a little warm because it is wool, but it is just... Beautiful. I have nothing more to add.

6. What spring trend(s) are you most excited about?
Stripes. I love my stripes. I just adore that pattern, and it comes back every year, which makes it a really good staple piece that you can use over and over and over again, every year. I also adore the fact that black and white outfits are in. The monochromatic look is so classy and modern, and I love me some black, so it's another perfect trend for me.

7. Favorite spring candle?
For me it's definitely Tiki Beach by Bath and Body Works. It's a warm scent, which I love, but are less popular scents around summer, and more around winter. But let me assure you, it is fabulous. It smells like coconuts, vanilla and musk. Ahh it makes my nostrils melt with joy.

8. Favorite perfume for spring?
I think it's quite obvious. I will not repeat this again. Just look at last week's post, and you will know why I freaking love Tresor Midnight Rose by Lancome.

9. What is spring like where you live?
Here it gets slightly chilly every once in a while, and at night, but mostly, it is sunny during the day, and warm, and humid at times, but still very lovely.

10. Favorite thing about spring?
I know this will sound... I don't know... Sappy, but the thing I love most about spring is the way it makes my mother feel. Every time she sees a flower blooming, and every time she sees that the sun doesn't set so early in the day, she is ecstatic, and whatever makes her happy, makes me happy.

11. Are you a spring cleaner?
I'm a spring messer. Does that answer the question?

12. Any plan for spring break or an upcoming vacation?
I just came back from Rome, so I can't ask for more.

That's all. Hope you have a wonderful day and that you stay kind, and loving, and generous. I tag you all to do it if you want to. Love, XOXO, Roni J.

99 Random Questions Tag

Hello girls. 

So very sorry for my long long absence. So many things have happened this week that I really... I really had to have a little break. For instance, I almost went on a date with a completely new guy that I know from a few years back and is two years older to a movie, when my sister-like friend told me he's a player, and when I said "hey it's been nice to talk to you, but I'm not really interested" his answer proved her right. That is all alright considering I still want Mr. object. I thought that in order to be a bit lighter we'll do a random tag. Wouldn't it be nice? Hope we all had a great Thanksgiving (whoever's American that is) and an even great black Friday.

1) Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I don't have a walk in closet, but I sleep with them closed. If I had a walk in closet I would have loved to have it open, and to see my closet in my dreams.
 

2) Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
No. I think that's a little rude, but no judgement there.
 

3) Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
AHHHH of course I sleep with them tucked out. Have I committed some deadly sin that I desetve being punished for by tucking my sheets in before I sleep?
 

4) Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
I'm this physically weak to a pathetic extant, goody two shoes girl. No I haven't.
 

5) Do you like to use post-it notes?
If by using them you mean sticking them to random places everywhere all the time, then yes. Very mature. I know.
 

6) Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
If I cut them I use them. If I don't need them, I don't cut them.

7)Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bee?
Well, I quite enjoy living. I think I chose the obvious NONE.
 

8) Do you have freckles?
Yup. Just a little on my cheeks, though.

9) Do you always smile for pictures?  

Not always, but mostly.

10) What is your biggest pet peeve?
Oh wow. I have so many. I hate clingy people. I hate when people enjoy being pathetic, and making you feel bad about everything you say to them. I hate people picking fights. I hate dramatic people basically haha. 

11) Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
No, I think of other things though. I love thinking when I walk almost as much as I love thinking in the shower.

12) Have you ever peed in the woods?
Yeah sure.

13) What about pooped in the woods?
Feminine much?

14) Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
I love dancing. I dance when possible.

15) Do you chew your pens and pencils?
Hell no. That's nasty.

16) How many people have you slept with this week?
What are you? None.

17) What size is your bed?
Queen size. Well fitted for a queen much like myself ;)
 

18) What is your Song of the week?
22 by Taylor Swift :D
 

19) Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Hell yea. You know a guy has some style when he manages to style pink. 

20) Do you still watch cartoons?
Yup :)

21) Whats your least favorite movie?
Hard to choose. I like most movies. There is one comedy that I tried watching and didn't get through, but I wouldn't know what it was called for the life of me.
 

22) Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
In a bank account. Duh.
 

23) What do you drink with dinner?
Tea. Good warm herbal tea that soothes the heck out of me.
 

24) What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Ketchup I guess. Or sweet chilly sauce.
 

25) What is your favorite food?
Oh wow. Tough competition between steak and sushi. 

26) What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Max Payne. It reminds me of my first date.

27) Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Mama.
 

28) Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
Fo sho! Still am.
 

29) Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
Probably not considering I want to be a politician, and that would be a BAD BAD idea. 

30) When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Two months ago.
 

31) Can you change the oil on a car?
I don't even drive. Yup, I'm almost 18, and don't drive. As I've said, I just love walking.
 

32) Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
^
 

33) Ever ran out of gas?
My mom has on the way to the mall I'd think. Other than that refer to #32 and #31
 

34) Favorite kind of sandwich?
When we drove up to Vermont three or four years ago, and had the most amazing Thanksgiving Turkey sandwich. Turkey, cranberry sauce, stuffing, and heaven in a piece of bread.
 

35) Best thing to eat for breakfast?
I don't really eat breakfast, which is unhealthy, I know, but if I had to I would gladly eat English breakfast. Without the sausage, though, 'cause I hate sausage.

36) What is your usual bedtime?
Well, the usual is 11pm, but if I could go to sleep and wake whenever without worrying about school it would be 3am.
 

37) Are you lazy?
Depends how driven I am.
 

38) When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
Mostly fairies. Any freaking kind of fairy I could dress up as.
 

39) What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Pig. Very funny.
 

40) How many languages can you speak? 

Two  fluently, I would say, and two more, not so fluently. Would love to know every single language.

41) Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nope. I rather reading a good book over it.
 

42) Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Legggggoooo
 

43) Are you stubborn?
As stubborn as life has to offer.
 

44) Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
Kimmel
 

45) Ever watch soap operas?
Teen dramas are the best!!! All the depth that I have in me.
 

46) Are you afraid of heights?
Yup.
 

47) Do you sing in the car?
I sing everywhere.
 

48) Do you sing in the shower?
As I've said already.
 

49) Do you dance in the car?
Possible. Not gonna lie. 

50) Ever used a gun?
Nah honey.

51) Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

Too long ago.

52) Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Yes. But I love them.
 

53) Is Christmas stressful?
Of course not.
 

54) Ever eat a pierogi?
Yes. All too lovely.
 

54) Favorite type of fruit pie?
I don't really like pie. I don't really like desserts in general.
 

56) Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Model, singer, actress, dancer and superstar. That is until some mean girls messed with my head, and now I have stage fright. I will however be a politician and save the world.
 

57) Do you believe in ghosts?
 Should I?
 

58) Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
In the past more than in current days.
 

59) Take a vitamin daily?
Nah. My diet is very balanced.
 

60) Wear slippers?
Only the fuzziest of types. Or as missglamorazy would say only the rarest of slippers.
 

61) Wear a bath robe?
Nah. Not really. Only in fancy hotels.
 

62) What do you wear to bed?
Depending on the season really.
 

63) First concert?
Hmmm... Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Avril Lavigne. I had my fair share of stupidity.
 

64) Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target I think.
 

65) Nike or Adidas?
Adidas I think.

66) Cheetos Or Fritos?
Fritos!
 

67) Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Both. Nut mixture!
 

68) Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
No, but I know what it means!
 

69) Ever take dance lessons?
Almost every single year of my life. Almost every kind of dance.
 

70) Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Something that makes them work their asses off. I like hardworking people.
 

71) Can you curl your tongue?
Yup. I can also touch it to my nose.... Freakk!
 

72) Ever won a spelling bee?
Never tried, but I am quite good at spelling.
 

73) Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
I think I have. At some point I must have.
 

74) Own any record albums?
My father owns some.
 

75) Own a record player?
No, but hopefully some day I will.
 

76) Regularly burn incense?
No, but I burn scented candles. Incense make me nauseous to be honest.
 

77) Ever been in love?
I don't think I'll ever know how to differ regular love from falling IN love.
 

78) Who would you like to see in concert?
Walk The Moon. They seem like so much fun.
 

79) What was the last concert you saw?
HMMM... Probably some local band at the fair. I'm really not sure.
 

80) Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot. Especially round this time of year.
 

81) Tea or coffee?
Tea.

82) Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Sugar.
 

83) Can you swim well?
Yes, I do. And I love it. Such an easy way to calm down.
 

84) Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yep.
 

85) Are you patient?
Usually.

86) DJ or band, at a wedding?
Paolo Nutini. Dream come true.
 

87) Ever won a contest?
A few stupid ones.
 

88) Ever have plastic surgery?
No. Don't plan to.
 

89) Which are better black or green olives?
Black.
 

90) Can you knit or crochet?
I used to, but kinda forgot.
 

91) Best room for a fireplace?
My room, or somewhere with a little nook that you can read books in.
 

92) Do you want to get married?
I don't really mind the ceremony itself, but I would love to have a partner to spend the rest of my life with, yes.
 

93) If married, how long have you been married?
Got time till then, honey.
 

94) Who was your HS crush?
So many and HS is not even over.
 

95) Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
Not anymore I don't. I do however cry quite a lot. Especially at the pain of others.
 

96) Do you have kids?
Thanks to all that's good and pure on this earth not yet.
 

97) Do you want kids?
I would love to have some of my own and at least one adopted, yes.
 

98) Whats your favorite color?
Green, blue, and burgundy.
 

99) Do you miss anyone right now?
Considering I used to live in a different country- hell yea. Many.

Get Your Freak On Tag

Hey there girls! I thought that I might just roll with the boredom of the moment and do a tag so that you get to know me a little better, and since I am a freak, I decided I should do this tag.  If you want to link your own in the comments below, or simply answer the questions!
Question number one, WOOP WOOP: What is a nickname only your family calls you?
This is simply the oddest thing and it has nothing to do with my name, but my dad calls me Uzu Buzu. Has nothing to do with life, I know, but whatever. I love it, cause it simply reminds me of home :).
2. What's a weird habit of yours?
I probably have a ton of weird habits. The one I can think of right now is my dirty jokes. You probably would have no idea, but I always comment dirty things and make dirty jokes, and it's really not because I have a dirty mind, but just kind of a reflex. If anyone says anything that sounds a little dirty I'd be the first to comment about it, and it's so weird, because I am really quite innocent, so I have no idea what the fire truck is wrong with me.
3. Do you have any weird phobias?
Yes, of course I do. I am weird hence I must have weird phobias don't I? My biggest fear is public transportation. I always get stressed out on buses and trains and get lost and such so.... Yup.
4. What's a song you secretly love to blast and belt out when you're alone?
Haha, well, this is embarrassing. I have a list of stupid girl fan type of songs that I love even though they're stupid, and really not believable and one of them is Unfriend You by Greyson Chance. Now don't laugh at me and don't leave the blog just because of this even if this really demands that somebody smacks me across the face.
5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves?
Well looks-wise I hate it when guys have long hair. I don't know why, but it simply bothers me, and it is simply the biggest turnoff when talking about looks. Sorry if this offends anybody, it's just my personal opinion. Personality-wise I hate people that aren't grateful for what they have, and a thing that shows this really obviously is that I am really bothered by people saying that they need something that's very superficial rather than saying that they want it. It just ticks me off, no, you do not NEED a new lipstick, no, you do not NEED a nail polish just because it's different to everything you've ever seen before. You WANT it. There's a HUMONGOUS difference.
6. What's one of your nervous habits?
My nervous habits are either playing with a necklace I have on if I have a necklace on, or cracking my knuckles, which is disgusting and really unhealthy so I'm trying to break this off.
7. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I have a queen size bed so it's either middle or floor :D.
8. What was your first stuffed animal?
I think my first stuffed animal is a Dalmatian that I called peepee. I know. I'm odd.
9. What's the drink you always order at Starbucks?
We don't really have a Starbucks here, but when I used to live in a place where they had Starbucks I would always order the Chai Tea Latte. Since I don't like coffee or anything with chocolate, it's the perfect choice.
10. What's the beauty rule you preech, but never practice?
Well, I think you should tell me :D.
11. Which way do you face in the shower?
Do I face a certain way in the shower? Does anyone?
12. Do you have any weird body skills?
I can touch my tounge to my nose, and my thumb to my wrist, put my leg over and behind my head, I can point with my toe, and that's basically it. Are you creeped out enough?
13. What's your favorite comfort food?
My favorite comfort food is any food really. I just enjoy stuffing my face with anything, not sweets, though, when I am upset or in the need of comforting.
14. What's a word or exclamation you always say?
I switch my weird expressions every once in a while. I say different weird things every few weeks I guess. I can't really think of one right now.
15. Time to go to bed what are you actually wearing?
I usually wear to bed a pair of Pj bottoms, usually my zebra print ones (FREEAK), and a random oversized comfortable shirt that I find in any of the closets at home.

Hope you enjoyed this :) Now in order to make up for my fangirl mistake up there, I will post another song I have been loving lately by The Script called "If You Ever Come Back".

Hope you did follow the earth hour instructions, because this is so important to take care of our planet you have no idea.