This Year (December Favorites)

Hello there! How are you pretty ladies?

I wish I could say I'm doing great, but I'm sick. I've been so busy the past week. I was literally running from one activity to another for three whole days, and the whole stress has taken a toll on my health. I am in bed coughing, but hey, on the bright side, and there always is a bright side, I get to take the test I was supposed to take on a different date. Thanks goodness. The most hardest literature exam on the face of the planet. I got more time to prepare myself for it now. PLUS I got some time to write my new years' resolutions, and my December favorites! See? There always is a bright side to everything, even if your head feels like a crazy fat lady is bouncing on it with a Pogo stick. I've got the best descriptions, I know.
Well then, this year...
1. I'm gonna face my fears. Most concerning my fear of the other gender, and falling in love with it. It's scary as hell, but I face my stage fright, and I've faced many worse fears in my life. There's absolutely no reason why I shouldn't
2. I'm gonna do more sports. Has got nothing to do with being thinner, or anything close to that. I am quite happy with my figure, but I also have to think about my future health. Someday it's not going to be as easy to gain muscles as it is now. Go out, Roni! Take a walk! You love it, don't you?
3. In a continuation to what's been said in the previous one, I'm gonna take more walks. I love taking strolls in the streets. I find it soothing, and comforting, especially if I need to be nowhere. It clears my head. It makes me feel like I have time; time to think, time to breathe, time to digest the world, and time to simply clear my head.
4. I'm gonna try and be less judgmental and critical. It's not fair to others to place your own insecurities on them. Especially with men. I criticize them so much, because I'm sooo insecure about everything they say about me, and that is absolutely not fair. I need to get over my pride, and give more guys a chance, because I'm so critical (being afraid they might hurt me) that I push them away. I'm not as judgmental about girls, because I have kept telling myself not to year after year after year, and it's about time that my new years' resolutions from 2010 come true.
5. I have gotta stop cursing, or rather lower the amount like crazy. It's not ok. It makes me sound trashy, and there's nothing less appealing than a girl who curses a lot, in opinion that is. I have been cursing so much that I ran out of curse words, and looked at other languages for new curse words. That's not ok.
6. Put a lot into my school work. No additions needed.
7. I shall also leave people that are bad for me out of the picture. I have just been yelled at by a so called friend, for caring for her that is. If they don't want people to care about them, they are running in that direction.

This is some of the things I want to do this year. I will follow these through and maybe add a few once one is completed.

Now for my December Favorites:
1) Nail polish- KYM by ZOYA, because nothing spells holidays like red nail polish with metallic reflects in it. Such a nice warm red with copper and gold reflects. I loved it for this whole holiday season. I barely switched it out.
2) Candle- Ikea's vanilla candle. Even when not lit, it makes the entire room fill up with bakery scents that make your tummy growl! It is quite big for a one wick candle, and therefor lasts quite well.

3) DIY- Candle holders. I got some ideas off of videos and Pinterest and Tumblr, and made them into reality. My goal is the picture in front of you. I tied a bow around my jar to make it more festive. I think that lighting candles and putting up string lights are the human way of fighting the darkness that brings our dear winter. That is why a lot of winter holidays on the north of the planet deal with a lot of lights. I love lights. They literally brighten up my day. My Tumblr page is filled lights of all sorts. You better check it out!
4) Tea- any tea. I've been drinking so much tea, because of my sickness that I feel drunk on it. I love it, nonetheless.

Hope you have a blissful, blessed and evolutionary year! We all deserve it! Love you very much! Roni J.
P.s. feel free to write down in the comments what your resolutions are for the  year to come!

The Blackest Friday Yet? (70th Post!!)

Hello there! How you doin'?- Yup this is me affected by the much needed excessive watching of reruns of Friends yesterday. I need VACATION! WINTER BREAK COME SOON! So many exams! I just kinda wish tomorrow would really be the end of the world (I don't really want that, but the stress is making me cave).
I mean, I wonder how many people have actually given this whole theory much thought. With all the movies self titled by the event or speaking of its existence, and no one really can say what will happen. On one hand it's kind of insane to think of something that one thing's there one day, and the very next it's gone. It's weird to think of one person dying, but the entire world? Nuts. I'd rather think tomorrow's not going to be the blackest Friday of all. I'd rather think they just ran out of stone to write on, or that this day is a day of enlightenment. "The end of the world as we know it" might refer to ending all the murder and pain and ache. I hope that is it.
I'm sure you're all wondering what happened during the trip and the winter ball (actually I'm not sure that interests anybody on this earth at all). Mr. Guy is the most confusing guy I could have chosen to like.  Before the trip has even started I have gotten the most lovely information that he had been with another girl the night before, a girl of whom I've heard before.
During the trip he did and said tons of things that I think will forever remain a mystery (especially if the end is tomorrow). For example(s) he came up to me and said something nice I'm not really sure what it was, looked me in the eyes, and stroked my cheeks. Of course that made me melt like a chunk of butter being put into the microwave and run over by a truck, or he kept calling me queen bee. I'm not too sure why. And then one night he came up to me held my face in his hands, and looked me in the eyes (melted chunk of butter, anyone?), and then went on saying something along the lines of "I'm trying to show you some love, but I'm afraid you'll sting me" only much later did I think of making the connection between that and "queen bee", which both occurred on the same night.
I will try to insert a picture from my outfit in the winter ball, but nothing was really mine, so no outfit of the day it is. During that night one of the guys, a very sweet guy said something along the lines of "There's a giant elephant in the room, and someone needs to refer to it. Roni, your legs are endless!", which made me a little uncomfortable walking in heels, because I'm self conscious about my height anyways, but then another guy said "what are you talking about? That's really sexy", and I blushed a little, and a friend of mine said to the first guy "this so turns you on!", at which point I was absolutely RED, and he stuttered.... Hmmm.
Mr. Guy on the other hand made a similar comment, and another friend of mine said "she looks like a model". He then replied "she's better than a model. She's not only good looking, but she's also sweet like honey" continuing with the whole theme of me being "queen bee". Later on he said he loves me. He was, by then, much drunk from beer.
I hate being attracted to him. Not to speak about the possibility that he's taken by that girl, and completely unclear to me. Today in school he said, yet again, just before I was about to leave and thank God that he didn't say anything to me today wanting to stop this mad cycle, that he loves me. I asked him out of a scale of one to ten just how much, and he said "99". Just means how much these words mean nothing to him. When to me, as stupid and innocent as that might sound, they mean a whole lot more. These are three words that their combination scares the holy bejeebees out of me. He scares the bejeebees out of me. When he looked me in the eyes, he made me feel like I was about to pee my pants basically, and if these words mean so little to him, when speaking about him, then this thing is only friendship material.

I'm tired of being scared. I'm not scared of the end of the world as much as I am scared of one look from him. How does that make any sense?

Speaking of the blackest Friday yet. I have yet posted a Black Friday haul for you. So here it is:
From Urban Outfitters:
A gray speckled  wool backpack with forest green flaps made of velvet. I love backpack, if you haven't yet noticed it after my backpack post- Watch Your Back that I made in May. I love this one. Super nicely made and durable. Fits everything I need for school which is important.

A gray speckled maxi skirt that has colorful metallic thread weaving through it. It has a black mini skirt slip attached underneath, but the rest is fairly see through. It has two slits down the sides, and it is extremely winter appropriate.
Third and most exciting is the maxi dress. Beautiful black a little sheer maxi dress with cutouts in the back. GORGEOUS, sits perfectly, possibly the best thirty bucks I've ever spent on clothes. Love the stinking thing to pieces.

Moving on to Bath and Body Works, I made a candle purchase, but I bought the mini ones that were on a big sale, and I didn't want to have one scent burning on forever in my room especially since the holiday season is fairly short, and I have my Ikea vanilla candle burning as of now, and as of the past fourteen months or so (it's NEVER ending, but delicious).
1. I bought this mini candle holder that's beautiful. Nothing really special about it except for it being a sweet decorative way to light your candles.
2. Snowed in- description: Escape the frigid winter wind, wrap up in your toastiest blanket and warm up this inspiring blend of fresh juniper, sugared sap and sage for the perfect day in!
One of my two favorite candles I bought this time around. Smells like a winter wonderland, and like the mall right before the holidays when you walk past Bath and Body Works or Slatkin and Co. Love it. So nostalgic. A little perfume like, but in a good way. It's more florally than it is sweet, spicy, or fruity.
3. White Barn No. 1 Nutmeg and Spice- description: A toasty treat of spiced caramel sprinkled with nutmeg, this fragrance evokes delightful memories of relaxing weekend getaways in the country.
Smells liking baking and decorating Ginger Bread with friends. Nostalgia. Sweet, a little spicy, gorgeous. Also a favorite of mine.
4. Fireside- description: Fill your home with a cozy blend of cedarwood, leather and rich deep amber that warms you up like an evening by a crackling fire on a dark winter's night.
I love this to pieces, but I'm not sure everybody would love this. To me this smells like fire, leather, and men. I don't really know what about it, but there's something that rather reminds me of manly cologne.
 5. Cinnamon & Clove Buds- description: This warm and spicy blend of classic cinnamon, simmering clove buds and exquisite vanilla is sure to bring back happy memories of beloved holiday traditions!
Definitely not my favorite one because it reminds me a little of medicinated scents, because that's what clove and cinnamon do to me, but it still smells nice. My parents actually picked this one up so I don't mind it too bad.

This is all <3 Hope you have a lovely end of the world. Good thing Britney has a song about this.

Hero

Hello pretty humans of the earth,
how are you doing? I wanted today's post to be a little less shallow than the usual clothes, make up, and such that are usually what is going on in here, and a little less shallow than boy drama, and high school drama that, I mean, are inevitable when you're in high school.
A few days ago, right before I was about to head off to run errands for my winter ball, and I hear this craziness about a school shooting in Connecticut. I'm almost certain that the big majority of us has already heard about this. I was absolutely shocked. Frightened.
The idea that a living creature could just go and murder so many people, so many of which were innocent pure kids is simply incomprehensible to me. I don't know what went through that man's head, and I am certain I have no interest in finding out, but I cannot possibly grasp any possible reason to do such things.
The actual thing I wanted to say is that my heart goes out to all that were affected; to all the parents that lost their children; to all who have lost dear people; to all that had to witness such a thing by seeing, hearing, or feeling any of it; to all that had to go through the terror of thinking any of their loved ones had been hurt. My heart goes out to all of them.
The only thing I am capable of doing right now for you is to pray (as I am believing) for your lost ones and for you, because this world is so big and there I am so small, hoping that the little that I'm doing is even close to being enough, but knowing that nothing will ever be enough to amend your hearts that shattered to pieces that day, and that I can't take the pain that you're feeling right now, not now not ever, but still hoping that I can ease it just a little by telling you I'm here.
It's hard to see this world go nuts and slip out of your hands when not so long ago you believed it is all under control and that some hero will fix anything that isn't. I sat in the car and heard Hero by Nickelback the day that it happened, and it just described what I felt about the whole event, and about having our world slip out of our small tiny hands. I thought about all the heroes that sacrificed their lives that day, and that line kept popping into my head "They say that a hero can save us. I'm not gonna stand here and wait". I heard it and thought how amazing what they did was. They did not stand there and wait for a hero, because those heroes that were supposed to come and save them were far too late. They acted upon it, even though it cost them their lives.
I just think that's all that we can do in this world to make it a better place. We need to be our own heroes. We need to put other people's lives and feeling before our own, because that's the true essence of love. Because another stanza in the song says: "Someone told me love would all save us, but how can that be? Look what love gave us; a world full of killing, and blood-spilling. That world never came", and I myself would love to believe that someone that told him that love would save us. I want to believe that by loving people hard enough, that honest, humble kind of love, not the one that involves jealousy and hatred, that love, that love can make this place just a tiny bit better. That love can stop that one person from committing suicide. That love can make that one girl not throw up her entire meal. That love can just as well stop a lonely sad soul from harming others.
I hope this makes some sense to all of you. I hope you think this through, and maybe think before you say something mean to someone, or think of the selfless thing to do. Because even if it only made you think twice, and you still said what you said, that is one step closer to thinking about it and realizing you shouldn't. Love you all. Remember that. For anything you need I'm here RoniJsway@gmail.com <3 Don't be afraid to ask any question <3
Roni J. 

No-Fave November (November Favorites)

Long time no talk. How are we all? Hopefully well.
These past few weeks have sucked the dear life out of me. I swear the amount of tests, exams, quizzes, home work that they have given us over the course of the past few weeks has been devastating to my biological clock, and my sleep. I barely have any sleep, and I'm as jumpy and stressed as a deer on the run from some hunter's eye who's set him as a target. It's the restless time of the year, but it's begun in the beginning of the year, and has yet ended, which brings up the question: will my entire senior year be this hectic and nuts?
I have just had to fill all sorts of questionnaires regarding my future that will determine when I end up in the next four years or so. All sorts of applications that I speak an entirely different language, perhaps intentionally, that have so much impact on the rest of my life, which is so weird. I've been in school since I remember myself, almost. After 12 years, it seems so hard to leave, you know?
And then next week we're going on a trip to the desert, me and a large group of friends that includes some guy that I don't know how to detach feelings from, even though I know, and others know, and perhaps even he knows, that I am much better than him. Not in the snotty way at all, but the dear object, although quite sweet, is not the best student, he's lazy as far as I can see, and he does all sorts of things, like alcohol for example, which are a big no no to me. It's not that I'm saying that I'm much better being this goody two shoes than anyone who doesn't put much efforts into school or drinks, but what I want for myself is not that. I want, of course this is much of a fantasy, since practically any kid smokes or drinks nowadays, is a guy who really is quite good, and doesn't depend on such drugs, which in my opinion are bad habits that we can all do without, and maybe do even better at being better people without. Obviously, that's what I think about it, and I am done judging people who think differently, because just like I have my reasons, they have their reasons as well, and I cannot ever change that, I can only accept it.
To put it shortly (that could not be any longer) he's coming on a four day trip with me, and a lot of other friends to the desert. Three nights spent in tents under the starry sky (hopefully starry, because this weather's a bitch). I don't know which of the four scenrios scares me more:
 1. He will get to know me better, hate me better, and these four days will become my love story's tragic ending before it has even begun.
2. He will absolutely ignore me the entire time, and there will be no interaction between us whatsoever, even though I really want this, and it has a big part in me even going on this shitty hiking and camping trip.
3. He will get to know me better, like me better, but as a friend, and I will be heart broken, bleeding shattered heart smithereens on the tent's floor.
4. He will get to know me better, love me better, and I will be as frightened as ever, and run away like I was that same deer we were talking about earlier fleeing from a big hungry wolf.
Why am I not surprised if I'm FREAKING EXCITED about this trip.. Not.

Well, anyways this is not what we've assembled for today.
My November favorites, in contrast to what the title says are actually quite a long list.

Perfume: By far T. Swift's Wonderstruck perfume. Because it is so woody, it is so good for fall. It is just like a good blend of mysterious woods, sweet fruits, and sexy vanilla. It doesn't hold up for too long unless you makes to spray it into your hair and into the clothes you're wearing. I would love to take it with me and reapply during the day, but it's less practical unless you have a Travelo, or something of that sort.

Site and App: TUMBLR. I am an addict. If you haven't checked it out quite yet, you're absolutely welcome to on Ronijsway.tumblr.com . It is just a collection of the most amazing things that make me smile and be happy, because they are so beautiful together and apart. I spend HOURS on this thing. Whenever I'm waiting for something I just go on it and spend loads of time.

Pants: Yes, my favorite stinking pants. They are a new purchase from Zara this month. My new beloved burgundy jeans. I wear these suckers everywhere all the time. They can be dressed up or down, and they add color to the boring winter color scheme.

Mug: My giraffe mug. Not only is it the best freaking cutest thing in this whole insane world, it is also HUGE, and I can cuddle with a big mug of any warm drink in front of a good movie, which brings me to the next three things.

Cuddling: With my family, and watching a movie is like the greatest thing about winter. I absolutely love my family, and I love that the holidays are coming, and that I get to spend time with them more, and that my birthday is coming :D, and that we are all together.

Movies:
*50/50: A movie starring Joseph Gordon Levitt about a guy who discovers he has cancer, and his battle with the illness and all other hard things in life. It brought me to tears, and it made me smile, and the ending was a little too... but I won't tell you so that I don't spoil the movie, but I still loved it.
*Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close: A very sad story, which I read the book to a good few years ago. I mean like five years ago, and both the book and the movie are insanely sweet, and sad, and breathtaking. I loved the movie so much. Really recommend the book as well. With Sandra Bulock and Tom Hanks.
*Skyfall: Yes, I watched Skyfall, and it was incredible, especially the beginning with Adele's song, it was the best of the latest Bond movies, and a great action movie, but definitely not the best Bond movie. I cried there as well, because that's what I do. I cry in movies, and a movie that I don't cry in is basically not worth watching.

Homemade Chai: I love Starbuck's Chai Latte, but I am trying to eat and drink at home, as much as I can, so that I don't  waste so much money, so a great alternative is putting  these into a tea brewer: a bag of Masala Chai tea, if that's possible, or just regular Earl Gray, putting in a few cloves, grinding some nutmeg in, a dash of cinnamon, and some cranberries. You pour that into your favorite mug (giraffe mug is the best way to go at it), add some frothed milk, and sugar, as much as you like. YUMMY.

Book: Eve by Anna Carey. I have finished the book this month, and I have to say it was incredible, that is if you like dystopian novels, like the hunger games and such, and don't mind some more graphic scenes that take place in the book. I cried, which is once again, a good sign.

Kindle: I have gotten it in August, but just bought Eve for the first time on it. It has been so comfortable carrying it around, and reading, especially during the boring bio classes. This year's teacher is a train wreck.

Nail polish:  Stylenomics by Essie. I just love how it elongates your fingers, and gives them that festive color.

Song: Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran. He's amazing really, and this song, and video, are both incredible and heartfelt. 

Hope you guys have a lovely holiday season no matter what you're celebrating, and I shall write you when I get back from the trip with all the details.
XOXO Roni J.